On the 9th, Kim Song expressed gratitude through a lengthy post, saying, “Blaming others and resenting situations as a victim has already become a thing of the past.” She shared, “I received a call from a broadcaster for a new program where **chaebol company would completely remodel our house, covering costs amounting to billions and providing the rest of the construction and interior from the chaebol family. The day before the construction, involving both broadcast staff and numerous construction personnel, was to commence, the chairman of the chaebol company decided not to proceed. Staff and company employees were at a loss for words and apologized profusely to us. At that moment, I repented in my heart.”
Kim Song continued, mentioning that as various events accumulated, she began to acknowledge that nothing happens by chance. “I’ve lost many things. I lost my beloved partner, who was originally my boyfriend, and my mother, who was my everything… What I’m most afraid of losing again are worldly things like health, Seon-i, money, and family.”
She further stated, “On the other hand, what I consider to be fortunate to gain is something I never named in my life. However, it’s already been scripted in God’s plan: my SongSong Market business with God.” She confessed her faith, saying, “I am thankful that there are no more miraculous ‘ta-da!’ moments but that I can now see my sins through the Word and draw closer to God.”
Kim Song married Kang Won-rae in 2003, and they have one son. Last month, Kim Song shared, “Before believing in God, I wanted to leave it all and get out through divorce,” adding, “I was captivated by a fake savior, infatuated by my husband, the epitome of a city man. So caught up was I in this worship that my current life is indeed the conclusion of that. It wasn’t as if my husband held onto me, but the infatuation lasted exactly 11 years; after a traffic accident during our tenth year of dating, one more year of infatuation passed before it cleared, and I truly lived in hell,” she said, revealing how her faith helped her overcome the crisis.
Here is Kim Song’s full message:
“Even in the cold or heat, I break through with Seon-i and go to worship.
I am thankful that blaming others and resenting them as a victim has already become a thing of the past.
Whenever incidents happen to me, whenever they come, I know it’s due to my greed.
I grow solemn, lose words, grow humble, and repent.
If I could give an example: I received a call about a new show from an old broadcaster: *a chaebol company was going to completely remodel our house, covering our billions in costs and providing all construction and interior work. The show’s content was flashy…, right before construction, involving broadcast staff and numerous personnel, was to begin, the chaebol chairman said they wouldn’t do the broadcast.
Both staff and company employees were speechless, continuously apologizing to us… At that moment, I repented in my heart.
After listening to a Sunday sermon and objectively seeing myself, I welcomed some* back after that incident, thinking, ‘Oh, God is giving me generous treatment because I forgave and welcomed back.’ It shattered my conditional faith in God. Who am I to say when God is the beginning and end?
After such things piled up, I could no longer brush them off casually, acknowledging that there is never coincidence in anything.
When the Word reveals my sins, I acknowledge them immediately and repent. God is always right.
I used to avoid, accurately speaking, not avoid, but question and shout at God, yet the Lord just embraced me. The Lord is just love.
I’ve lost many things…
I lost my beloved partner, who was originally my boyfriend…
And I lost my mother, who was my everything… and so on…
The fear of losing something again revolves around worldly things such as health, Seon-i, money, and family.
Conversely, what I consider positive to have gained is something I never named in my life, but it was already scripted in God’s plan: my SongSong Market business with God.
I want to draw closer, ever closer, to God.
I long for the omnipotent God who came to the unbeliever me with fervor when I was a new believer.
Now, He has elevated my level, and while there may no longer be miraculous ‘ta-da!’ events, I am only grateful now that I can see my sins through the Word and draw closer to God.
There are many who seek easy ways to resolve problems immediately.
When I work, I have my native brother find a way… seeking help.
Honestly, if God blocks it, I know it is futile, no matter how hard I struggle,
So I prioritize deciding and applying based on the Word and devotion while praying.
During worship, there are no conditions or situations to consider. What words are needed? A sinner like me merely says ‘Amen.’
Pursuing strength in spirit and truth means more actively praying for those around me,
While what I must refrain from is, during the early passionate time, evangelization and delivering the gospel to my sister and sister-in-law, who still couldn’t lift spoons, hearing ‘Why made to use chopsticks when yet can’t digest’…
It reminded me of what the pastor said in a sermon: [One should approach God with prayer while remaining silent towards people.]
Because I had then inadvertently reversed that with my zeal, not waiting with patience, causing people to falter—I realized this, so now, I am in a state of holding back.
I am sinful tied to this world, and though I want to live a life fearing God and worshiping in spirit and truth as today’s message says, there are only sins I can commit.
(Just earlier, I got into a quarrel, venting out abusive words on someone who recklessly wrote on my husband’s feed, and while it felt good, my language remains unrefined. Don’t mess with me; I used to spit at people. You’re no match for me, so don’t provoke me.)
Therefore, I am just a person who wants to draw even closer to God.”